I think its amuseing sometimes how people think. Im just going to give up on careing for people except for my really close friends the only people that i should care about. Im not going to turn into some asshole guy but im also not going to sit here and try to get with any one girl either fuck it. If something happens then i feel its because its meant to happen.

I feel like ive been being an asshole lately to certain people but im not doing it on purpose and honestly im not going to come up with excuses im sorry, maybe im changeing or something i dont know, i really didnt notice it until late last night. I just think that maybe from now on out i should speak whats on my mind, the truth. tell people how it is straight up the way i see it. If people dont like that then they can stop talking to me or whatever i dont give  a shit anymore.

Another thing im sick of trying to help people and have them never listen anyways. Or if they listen about something they go out and do that same thing with someone else that makes it even worse then the first time. So if you REALLY need help and you are SERIOUSLY willing to get advice from me, you can take it or not i dont care but if your serious about it thats when ill give you my advice or whats on my mind. Im not going to fuck around and act like a little grade school kid anymore, i gotta work on getting my life ready now. I know people say its to early your only 18 just got out of school. I dont give a shit i want to get out on my own as soon as i can. I want to be all settled so when im about 25 ish i can start my own family without haveing to worry about ANYTHING.